So, I'm leaving in about 17 days. Moving to another country, leaving this life behind and starting a new one. It's a period of many changes, ends and beginnings. I'm leaving. It doesn't get anymore real than that. Well, I've been spending my last few days home with my friends, a little bit with my… Continue reading 17 days
Tag: growth
My grandfather’s advice
I just got off the phone with my grandfather. He's a stern and methodical man, he always has been. I've admired him for his need for order, love of lists, habit of writing things down and undying curiosity. I share these characteristics too and I truly believe that these things have rubbed off on me,… Continue reading My grandfather’s advice
Bad days
Everyone has good days and bad days. I've been having a couple of meh-ish, bad days in a row now. It's not too serious, but I feel like these things build up, you know? My bad days usually start with a feeling of heaviness when I wake up in the morning; maybe because of a… Continue reading Bad days
Wind-up toy
I believe that I do relatively well at university - both academically, in my co-curricular and extra-curricular activities. My marks, certificates and volunteering proves that. I think I do relatively well, or rather, I think others think I do relatively well. Lately, it's been a good time, achievement-wise for me - I've been interviewing people… Continue reading Wind-up toy
Some things never go away
When I was a teenager, I self-harmed. I would cut myself every time I got upset or sad or angry. I was around 13 years old when I first did it, I was really sad about something, but I just can't remember what. By the time I turned 17, it was a terrible dependency. I… Continue reading Some things never go away
Zig-zagging
Let's, just for a moment, hypothetically assume that everything we wish to achieve lies on a single straight line. Along the straight line are various checkpoints of wants, desires and achievements. Every time you fulfill a goal, another takes its place and so the story goes. Life, however, is not a straight line. More of… Continue reading Zig-zagging
The notion of being ‘good enough’
I have to make a strange admission - throughout my life, I have been afraid of not being good enough. Not being good enough at academics, at dance, at swimming, at reading 'smart' books and so on. I've striven to be absolutely perfect in every single thing that I have done and while I end… Continue reading The notion of being ‘good enough’
Social Media Detox
Quite an enormous proportion of the human race has convinced itself that our phones, specifically social media, are absolutely imperative for our survival in this modern, tech-driven world. To be honest, I was one of these people, maybe I still am, but there's a seed of doubt in my mind now. I'm a college student.… Continue reading Social Media Detox
Pain is inevitable
Pain is inevitable, that much I have learnt is true. It's what we make of the pain that we undergo that defines us. I truly believe that. I used to be the kind of person who just festered in their pain. I'd feel hopeless and rather helpless most times and it would be so terrible… Continue reading Pain is inevitable
Flux
Human beings are always evolving, constantly in a state of flux in tandem with the world around them. Nevertheless, there are some things that remain the same - the most inert parts of our personalities, belief systems and habits. Maybe it's because of genetics, maybe because we were conditioned to be a particular way and… Continue reading Flux
Memoirs of a Muse 