A few months ago, my supervisor applied for a grant that would allow him to keep me in Amsterdam - so that we could work together, so I could learn more from him, and so I could support myself while doing it. The research topic is very interesting to me - very, very challenging because… Continue reading D7.19
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UvA acceptance
I can still somewhat remember the evening I got into university. It was in February, I think. Nothing extraordinary. I remember walking from the living room and into my room, plopping down at my desk. I opened my laptop, and there it was, sent just a few minutes ago. An email from the University of… Continue reading UvA acceptance
Rejection
Rejection is not pretty. I don't like it, and I don't imagine that anyone else does either. To me, rejection feels a lot like failure. And I don't like failing. I think my whole life, whether it is personal or academic, revolves around me doing things that minimise my chance of failure. I do not… Continue reading Rejection
Healing stress through gratitude
Nobody ever told me how absolutely stressful going abroad to study is. Maybe things are more difficult because of the pandemic, but this is a kind of stress and worry that I have never experienced before. Nearly every night, I'll receive an email from university, or some other important entity I'm interacting with and it… Continue reading Healing stress through gratitude
Passion vs. doing things just-so
I need to do some reflection right now. I'm not quite able to wrap my mind around it clearly, but I'm hoping that writing it down will help me compartmentalize my thoughts. Right, here it goes. I like to think that I'm the kind of person who knows what she wants. For the most part,… Continue reading Passion vs. doing things just-so
Wind-up toy
I believe that I do relatively well at university - both academically, in my co-curricular and extra-curricular activities. My marks, certificates and volunteering proves that. I think I do relatively well, or rather, I think others think I do relatively well. Lately, it's been a good time, achievement-wise for me - I've been interviewing people… Continue reading Wind-up toy
Social Media Detox
Quite an enormous proportion of the human race has convinced itself that our phones, specifically social media, are absolutely imperative for our survival in this modern, tech-driven world. To be honest, I was one of these people, maybe I still am, but there's a seed of doubt in my mind now. I'm a college student.… Continue reading Social Media Detox
A bottle of honey
A bottle of honey On the 25th of April, I wrote these three small chits and stowed them away into a bottle of honey. I'd done it as a part of a workshop, we were meant to write down things that we wanted to personify, or qualities we wanted to foster within ourselves and open… Continue reading A bottle of honey
Pain is inevitable
Pain is inevitable, that much I have learnt is true. It's what we make of the pain that we undergo that defines us. I truly believe that. I used to be the kind of person who just festered in their pain. I'd feel hopeless and rather helpless most times and it would be so terrible… Continue reading Pain is inevitable
Boundaries
Lately, the topic of boundaries has become quite an important matter of reflection in my life. It started off with wondering about the boundaries I'm setting with other people, which one's I've crossed in the past and have paid heavily for; but also the ones that I have understood completely and respected. Before, the way… Continue reading Boundaries
Memoirs of a Muse 