I'm terrified of sexual assault. I don't want myself or anyone else in this world to go through it. Although I know people of all ages, genders and (skin) colours may undergo sexual assault, I speak of my experiences and perspectives as a 22 year old woman of colour. I am terrified of sexual assault.… Continue reading The fear of sexual assault
Tag: college
My brother turned 17
My little brother turned 17 without me today. He's growing older and I'm on the other side of the globe, wishing I could be there to celebrate with him. He's the most important person in my life and I would do absolutely anything for him. It's so incredibly difficult to be so far away from… Continue reading My brother turned 17
Hi S,
Hi S, How are you doing? You probably don’t read my blog, but I felt like writing you this letter anyway. It’s been two and a half years since we parted ways. And it’s been a little over two years since I have seen your face. I hope you’re doing well. I hope you’re happy… Continue reading Hi S,
17 days
So, I'm leaving in about 17 days. Moving to another country, leaving this life behind and starting a new one. It's a period of many changes, ends and beginnings. I'm leaving. It doesn't get anymore real than that. Well, I've been spending my last few days home with my friends, a little bit with my… Continue reading 17 days
Healing stress through gratitude
Nobody ever told me how absolutely stressful going abroad to study is. Maybe things are more difficult because of the pandemic, but this is a kind of stress and worry that I have never experienced before. Nearly every night, I'll receive an email from university, or some other important entity I'm interacting with and it… Continue reading Healing stress through gratitude
Should I not leave?
My immigration form for the Netherlands came yesterday and it's all feeling so real now. Things are moving fast, really fast. And I feel really unprepared about the whole thing. I feel like I don't know anything about the immigration process, housing applications and life in general outside my home. It's really terrifying me. What's… Continue reading Should I not leave?
Waiting for the next ‘big thing’
Lately, it feels like my days are just 'fillers' until I go away to college. Everyday feels the same: I wake up, do my morning chores, sit in front of my laptop and just stare. Nothing feels like it has any value anymore. I think the pandemic plays a part in it, of course. But… Continue reading Waiting for the next ‘big thing’
Budget plans
Last evening, my dad and I spent hours making a budget plan for my study abroad. It's not that I've been accepted anyplace yet, but it was a requirement for someplace I'm applying to. At first, it was okay. I kept thinking, oh, we can afford this, it's not that big a deal. But then,… Continue reading Budget plans
Boundaries
Lately, the topic of boundaries has become quite an important matter of reflection in my life. It started off with wondering about the boundaries I'm setting with other people, which one's I've crossed in the past and have paid heavily for; but also the ones that I have understood completely and respected. Before, the way… Continue reading Boundaries
Studying Abroad
A little bit about me. I was brought up in one city, all my life. I went to one school during my entire education. I've lived only in two homes and had friends only from my city for the majority of my life, until college. I didn't even move away from home for college. And… Continue reading Studying Abroad
Memoirs of a Muse 