Recently, a friend of mine asked me what colour I think she is. She's a cute girl. Sarcastic, funny and expressive. The colour that comes to mind when I look at her is grey. A soft and pretty grey. It's a beautiful colour, but I felt that she wasn't satisfied with being called "grey". And… Continue reading Grey
Tag: Thoughts
Imposter
Sometimes this feeling of utter and complete mediocrity washes over me. I feel as if the ones closest to me are just so much better than I am, have more figured out than I do and are all-around more mature than me. I don't like that. Because more often than not, that feeling is mainly… Continue reading Imposter
A shift in the cosmos
Last night, I was on my rooftop with a friend. We were walking, talking and watching the clouds change shape. When I'm with him, there's no masks on. I don't feel the need to behave a certain way or say certain things, I'm just me. Authentic, real me. I'm honest with him, more honest than… Continue reading A shift in the cosmos
17 days
So, I'm leaving in about 17 days. Moving to another country, leaving this life behind and starting a new one. It's a period of many changes, ends and beginnings. I'm leaving. It doesn't get anymore real than that. Well, I've been spending my last few days home with my friends, a little bit with my… Continue reading 17 days
Waiting for the next ‘big thing’
Lately, it feels like my days are just 'fillers' until I go away to college. Everyday feels the same: I wake up, do my morning chores, sit in front of my laptop and just stare. Nothing feels like it has any value anymore. I think the pandemic plays a part in it, of course. But… Continue reading Waiting for the next ‘big thing’
Some things are ‘just for me’
Do you have a few things you keep to yourself? Objects, thoughts or emotions. They're yours and no one else's, you rarely talk about them because sharing them is tainting them. I have some things like this and I know for certain that others in my life do too. People who are not private, become… Continue reading Some things are ‘just for me’
Clay
Have you ever wondered about who you are? What are those little things that make you into you? What are your likes, dislikes and characteristics? Who are you? The thought just occurred to me a couple moments ago. I was laying in bed, watching a video and it happened, I asked myself: Who am I?… Continue reading Clay
Bad days
Everyone has good days and bad days. I've been having a couple of meh-ish, bad days in a row now. It's not too serious, but I feel like these things build up, you know? My bad days usually start with a feeling of heaviness when I wake up in the morning; maybe because of a… Continue reading Bad days
Passion vs. doing things just-so
I need to do some reflection right now. I'm not quite able to wrap my mind around it clearly, but I'm hoping that writing it down will help me compartmentalize my thoughts. Right, here it goes. I like to think that I'm the kind of person who knows what she wants. For the most part,… Continue reading Passion vs. doing things just-so
The eye of the storm
Does anyone else ever get this feeling that absolutely engulfs you. It tells you to write, draw, paint, create. It fills you up and you feel like a cup about to overflow. It's a little overwhelming, no doubt; yet the weight of that feeling on your chest is something you welcome. For me, the feeling… Continue reading The eye of the storm
Memoirs of a Muse 