A little bit about me. I was brought up in one city, all my life. I went to one school during my entire education. I've lived only in two homes and had friends only from my city for the majority of my life, until college. I didn't even move away from home for college. And… Continue reading Studying Abroad
Category: Thoughts
Passive Income
I've been considering the option of making some passive income while I'm a student for a few weeks now. I realize that it's probably not going to be an enormous amount, but that's alright because this is the first step to the financial freedom I crave so much. This past year, I've really begun to… Continue reading Passive Income
Stress
I haven't been doing very well since yesterday in terms of my mental health. A lot of stuff has been going on. My university is conducting exams when there was a regulation released that they should be cancelled, there's a COVID case pretty close to home and I've been feeling rather unproductive and inferior lately.… Continue reading Stress
Therapy
I've been in therapy before. It was a slightly confusing experience for me and I'm not quite sure my first therapist helped me so much. I mean, she was good and I did feel somewhat better, but it didn't necessarily feel like my ideal therapeutic alliance. I think I need a different approach. I've been… Continue reading Therapy
Mediocrity
One of my most deep-seated and real fears is being mediocre. The thought of being an ordinary woman, with an ordinary life scares the hell out of me. I can't imagine myself as a domestic woman, doing domestic things. And this is not to say that I have something against people who do choose that… Continue reading Mediocrity
People are useful
There's this notion that my surroundings have familiarized me with while growing up. The notion is that 'People are useful'. And not in the they can be generous to you, assist you in times of need and support you; rather in the you can use them to learn more, better yourself and get ahead. This… Continue reading People are useful
I miss someone
I miss someone. But I don't know if it's real, you know? Do I miss them now, only because I'm feeling anxious and stressed or do I miss them because they sent me something a couple of days ago? Do I miss them because I'm reminiscing? Or do I not miss them at all? And… Continue reading I miss someone
The minds of the people around me
Alright, so this is a thought that just came to me this morning. It's been barely 15 minutes since I've been fully awake but there's something different in the air today. Because you see, last night I had a conversation about some pretty heavy stuff with a friend. Pasts, presents, futures. Energies, paths and instincts.… Continue reading The minds of the people around me
Education
I've heard this phrase in different contexts, languages and wordings: 'Your education is a privilege, don't waste it' I never understood it, until now. You see, growing up, all the other kids I knew were either in the same school, or in a school that's just as good. For us, education is a given. Our… Continue reading Education
‘Skinny’
Body image has never been an outright issue for me. Though I've always subconsciously wanted them, I haven't purposefully yearned for a more idealistic body, a flatter tummy or skinny legs. Until, I guess, a couple of years ago. When I was younger, maybe ages 13-16, I got rather plump. I was fine with that,… Continue reading ‘Skinny’
Memoirs of a Muse 