More and more often lately, I've been thinking about how I want a daughter. I've always imagined myself having a daughter at some point in my life. Always a daughter, I don't know why. I've been thinking of her lately. What she'll be like, who she'll be. How I'll raise her, how I'll get to… Continue reading A little girl
Tag: love
When Emma falls in love
How does one even start an entry like this? I don't know where to begin because I'm feeling so much. My best friend fell in love with her best friend. And this is not about me, but I have so many feelings about it. First of all, I am just so immensely, gut-wrenchingly happy for… Continue reading When Emma falls in love
New friends
I'm making new friends in Leiden, it's so exciting. And I mean friends. Not people I say "hi" or "bye" to on the stairs in our building. Not acquaintances. Friends. Friends who fit into different parts of my life. Friends with whom I do different types of things. It's so cool, this realisation that I… Continue reading New friends
I can change my mind
One of the most exciting discoveries I've made in the past year is that I can change my mind. It sounds really basic, I know. But this discovery was fundamental for me. It's been a revelation. I can change my mind, how cool is that? How cool is it to have independence, autonomy, and the… Continue reading I can change my mind
2025
It's 2025. Wow. Last year, I wrote that I wanted 2024 to be a year of self-exploration. I wanted to understand myself better, put myself in tough situations, and learn how to adapt. I've done that and so much more this past year. 2024 has been one of the wildest years of my life so… Continue reading 2025
Liina
I have a feeling she's going to read this, so hi, girlie! I said goodbye to one of my dearest friends today. It hadn't sunk in when I was saying goodbye to her, it felt like a regular goodbye: like I'm going to see her next week, and the week after, and then the week… Continue reading Liina
My life is so beautiful
My life has been so beautiful so far. I have had the most wonderful experiences. I have travelled (albeit not nearly as much as I would like), I have had a loving and supportive family, I have built the warmest and closest friendships, and I have loved and been loved by so many people. I… Continue reading My life is so beautiful
Fra
One of my best friends in the whole entire world moved back to her home country today. She's like a sister to me. We lived together for a year and became so used to each others' presence in our everyday life. I am so used to seeing her first thing in the morning while she… Continue reading Fra
Cancer
Somebody very close to me, somebody I grew up with, was recently diagnosed with cancer. The news shocked their immediate family because, in a span of three weeks, they went from a healthy, active college student to someone who is sick and immediately needs to undergo chemotherapy. It came out of nowhere, really. These things… Continue reading Cancer
2024
It's the new year. 2024. I came to museumplein to see the fireworks this year. By myself. I was supposed to be here with a few friends but they decided not to come at the last moment because of the rain. I'm so, so, so glad that I decided to come by myself. I'm so… Continue reading 2024
Memoirs of a Muse 