Lately, I've been making a genuine effort to identify my patterns as a first step to changing the harmful ones. I've been trying to observe when I shut down, when I get annoyed, irked, or frustrated. I'm trying to understand why I react to things a certain way, and I've been trying to be cognizant… Continue reading Identifying my patterns
Tag: mental health
What the fuck
My initial reaction to seeing the report that the psychiatrist shared with me was, "What the fuck?" I had been expecting a summary of our discussion and the psychiatrist's diagnosis. I was anticipating reading her perspective on things. But all I get is, "Diagnosis: Obsessive compulsive personality traits,OCD,in remission"? This is literally verbatim. I haven't… Continue reading What the fuck
Stress
I haven't been doing very well since yesterday in terms of my mental health. A lot of stuff has been going on. My university is conducting exams when there was a regulation released that they should be cancelled, there's a COVID case pretty close to home and I've been feeling rather unproductive and inferior lately.… Continue reading Stress
‘Skinny’
Body image has never been an outright issue for me. Though I've always subconsciously wanted them, I haven't purposefully yearned for a more idealistic body, a flatter tummy or skinny legs. Until, I guess, a couple of years ago. When I was younger, maybe ages 13-16, I got rather plump. I was fine with that,… Continue reading ‘Skinny’
Things that make me feel better
Sometimes, I make myself utterly anxious and terrified from the things I think about and things that happen around me. But there are some things that make me feel so much better. While not all of these things work all of the times, I decided it was worth listing them down for a rainy day… Continue reading Things that make me feel better
Memoirs of a Muse 