Alright, so this is a thought that just came to me this morning. It’s been barely 15 minutes since I’ve been fully awake but there’s something different in the air today. Because you see, last night I had a conversation about some pretty heavy stuff with a friend. Pasts, presents, futures. Energies, paths and instincts. It was so entirely burdensome, but in a freeing way.
I felt at peace after the conversation and I feel at peace this morning.
Which brings me to my point. More than once in my life, I have felt that people can’t keep up with me. Not in terms of physical things like adventure; rather, more spiritual things such as my soul, my purpose and my instincts. I have felt that they probably wouldn’t understand what I mean. Though part of the reason may be because I have so much trouble putting these abstract concepts in my mind into words satisfactorily, but some people I know for sure, simply don’t have the capacity to understand. And that’s not necessarily a bad thing, it just means that their alignments are different than mine.
So, after this conversation last night and acknowledging the way I feel this morning, I realise that I want to surround myself with people who have the depth I do. People with whom I can discuss signs, energies and auras (what I believe are colloquially called ‘vibes’).
This part of me is not all I am and I’m capable of many other social conversations, but I feel that it’s the part of me that’s been left untapped.
And for this reason, I no longer care about casual discourses and the simplicity of small talk. Neither do I care about half-assed attempts at being social.
No, I’d rather be surrounded by people who I can learn from. I’d rather be surrounded by people I can teach.
Simply put, I’d rather be around people who will make me a better version of myself than I was yesterday because lately, I’ve been learning that learning, growing and bettering myself is the only thing that matters to me.
Memoirs of a Muse 